What am i suposed to say? what are we? its crazy how after all you hurt me, i still would do anything to just be with you. i love you and im glad right now .. im actually close to happy again.. but i dont know if i should be.. i dont know how long this will last again.. im just super confused and i guess ill see what happens..
A lot of times, I wish we had never met.. you have no idea how much it kills me to see you. Or to talk to you, I hate when you text me out of no where.. but it sort of also kind of makes my heart beat faster, because i know you were thinking about me.. but never the way you used too. if you ever even meant it when you said “i love you” .. those words shouldn’t just be words you can just throw around to who ever, and whenever you want too? They should be true. you should mean it. a year and 2 months is a long ass time to “love” someone, and then you just leave out of no where one day?.. I don’t understand what I did wrong, really. I guess I just never thought it’d ever be THIS hard.. ever. & It honestly fucking sucks, so bad. Its been about 7 months now, and the pain is not going away.. I feel like there is noone else out there for me, either. I feel like no matter how hard I look, I see nothing out there for me. Now I’m just scared if I ever DO find someone else, I’m scared I’ll go threw this again..
